Now that I’m in Hawaii for college, things aren’t exactly what I expected; I believed that I can start a new life, get new friends and keeping on with life. It was awesome during the first two months or so (maybe even actually the first couple of weeks actually), but now it’s different. It’s been at least two months that I’m here. I haven’t exactly made as much friends I wanted to, nor have I “enjoy” myself as much. No parties (“parties”). Only one rave. Worked too much. Too much time in my room. Never explored.
I do miss a bundle of things right now. Ironically, I miss the cold(er) weather during these Fall/Winter season. I actually want cold Fall/Winter, even if the weather is freaken bipolar. I was window shopping the other day and basically, all the stores were selling useless winter wear for my location. The clothes looks awesome; I do want, but I wouldn’t have a chance to wear them and it would go to a waste. I miss my friends back home. They all seems to be having lots of fun and actually enjoying college. Truthfully, I do miss my mom and sister. Yeah, I guess you can say that I’m really homesick right now. I just don’t feel right being here. I don’t feel like I belong. It’s not worth it to continue staying here if I stay feeling like this right? Right.
I am regretting a couple of choices that I made as well. I regret choosing a roommate who sleeps past 12 a.m. I will leave that rant for another day. I know it will get ugly and long. I also sort of regret leaving California right. Probably because I’m homesick right now, but I think I could have had more fun back home instead. Okay let’s say I didn’t regret leaving California, well I regret not putting myself out there during the first week or two of college to make friends (or even now actually to make more friends). I sit around and feel alone all the time actually. I’m a human too; I need social contact as much as the guy next to me.
Well, with all that said, I’m ready come back during Winter Break. I really can’t wait to come back. I wish Thanksgiving Break was longer, but sadly, it’s only 4 days. Could have been at least a week, then I’ll consider coming back. Now, I just have one month left until I go back, and I really can’t wait.
That homesick feeling never really goes away. I’m in my fourth year, in San Diego, and still feel it (though not as much.) You’ll probably end up meeting more people as time goes on and things will work themselves out.